I want to be an English major, but I want to be a good English major
(in the same way the last three people I dated were “good” doctors)
What type of doctors were they?
Psychiatrist, doctor of philosophy (or PhD), emergency medicine physician (MD). The MD was the most impressive, if you compare me to the average MD, but I wasn’t very impressive as an MD – like, I’m doing a residency and I’m not very competent, I’m bad at history and I have trouble understanding the more advanced parts of my own training.
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Ummm… are you planning on sticking with the program? Medicine might not be for you
I haven’t decided, and don’t really know much about the options besides med school or residency. (At least, right now I’m more inclined to stick with med school, which might be an improvement over residency?) But I probably should not stick with med school, since I’m pretty unhappy about it as a career path and I’m not sure it’s the right fit. On the other hand, med school probably won’t be worse than residency, although it might be a better match for me psychologically.
This all depends a lot on what sort of job I’m likely to find after residency. I think that depends in part on whether med school is going to be a good career path for me, and there aren’t really good answers to that question that aren’t going to be affected by the fact that I’m unhappy and want to get out of med school.
It sounds like you need to leave med school. Are you worried that your parents will be mad— or worse, disappointed?
I think that may be true, but I don’t think I have a lot of control over that aspect of the situation.
The only thing I’m angry about here is my parents not letting me “drop out” of med school when I want to and then I “graduate” from my residency training to become a real doctor, rather than going back to being a useless non-doctor who cannot get hired as a waiter, and that is a pretty reasonable anger to feel (though probably too extreme for my current circumstances).